Kill me, Kill me now.

My gyne, Dr Tan Hak Koon from SGH, has put me on a pill called Duphaston, an addition to my folic acid to assist the pregnancy.

During my 6th week visit, Krispy Kreme (yes we have named our wee one after a donut) heart was beating at 98bm, which was rather low for a new heartbeat. It is usually expected to be 100 and above, so Duphaston is

“a progestin medication which is used for a variety of indications, including threatened or recurrent miscarriage during pregnancy, dysfunctional bleeding, infertility due to luteal insufficiency, dysmenorrhea, endometriosis, secondary amenorrhea, irregular cycles, premenstrual syndrome, and as a component of menopausal hormone therapy”.

Basically to make sure hormones and progestin level are up to assist the pregnancy. Of course now heart beat is finally stabilized, but Mr Tan recommended I continue on the medicine to play it safe.

However this medication has caused me to be SEVERELY HUNGRY. It is like everyday I could eat a COW. It has come to the point that I have to have snacks in my bag all the time because I would feel starved to the point that I can’t stand straight. You know the feeling of meeting someone for an epic meal but that someone take AGES to come and thus you can’t eat yet? I feel like that EVERY MINUTE. I could get full for 5 minutes and become extremely hungry after.

Of course, with the nature of my job, it doesn’t make it easier. Working in Architecture means intense work everyday, long hours with high stress level. Everyday at work is torture due to my fatigue, when most days I still feel like taking a nap. I still have to commit overtime occasionally which doesn’t help my tiredness, especially when the work commitment is usually 24hrs with my whatsapp lighting up every minute due to work. Everyday during meetings facing colleagues, my bosses and my clients with nausea worrying I might vomit on them any second. I honestly do not know how some women architects cope with having a kid and working at the same time.

I have been told when I enter my second trimester I would feel alot more energized and better. Man, I am really looking forward for my First trimester to be over soon!