A Mother and a Wife

It's weird how the feeling of becoming a mother changes your perspective on life.

I had a wonderful childhood, although it could be better. My mother did everything in her power to raise me and my sister to the best that she could, although there were obstacles too mighty for her to cross.

She was a lowly paid full time working mother, working for my dad. Because she had accidentally got pregnant with me when she was dating my dad, she was plunge into motherhood not by choice. Sorry Mom 😅😅.

I hardly ever saw my parents in the day, and barely had any time at night because of all the school work I had to do. I remember calling her all afternoon asking her what time she will be back from work. When she does get home, she was always too tired to play.

I made a choice that I shall not be stuck to a man and let his life define my career choice. I will get my degree, work hard, and children can come later to be fair, I was not even counting on having a family of my own.

I met a gentleman who treated me like I was his world. We agreed to have a baby 2 years after we got married, and just overnight, my perspective changed.

Suddenly I didn't feel my career was that important anymore, now that I have a human life growing inside me. I wanted to give her everything I didn't have, and want to make sure she never felt alone. My initial dream of becoming and architect seemed so unimportant. I suddenly felt the stress to slave for a corporate life was the last thing I wanted. I still loved architecture, but I did not want it to over shadow my new life.

I wanted to have time to not just be a designer, but more importantly, a mother and a wife.

Pregnancy Cravings: Quinoa Grain Bowl

So Krispy Kreme has been a fussy eater. I have realize that whenever I eat hawker food, which is the only thing available anywhere near my work location, I will have a very bad nausea after which prevents me from lasting throughout the day. So I have been ordering slightly expensive options which has made me broke last month. This time, I have asked my hubby to make so healthier meals for me to bring to work to cut cost.

My choice tonight, Jamie Oliver's Quinoa Graine Bowl! The recipe is from one of his cookbooks titled Super Foods, one that I bought 2 years ago and never used 😅😅.

Hubby is a busy engineer, and yet taking the time to cook upon requests after work. I am so blessed 😊😊😍😍.

And it was delicious! I think my husband tweeked the recipe to add more of my favourite ingredients into the dish. I am generally a big fan of quinoa but if I were to eat it everyday we would be broke 😂😂.

Adjusting to my growing belly

This was me at 1 mth of pregnancy, and me telling mack he's not gonna be the only baby in the house no more!

He still needs some time to accept the big news 🙀🙀

It's already the 15th week and still the nausea won't go away! People are slowly getting me to accept the fact that it is probably going to be around for the whole pregnancy.

You know you have some mom's who love the feeling of having their little one growing inside of them? And when you see them they have this beautiful aura of mother?

It's a load of bullshit because I feel like a gorilla everyday.

And although it is still pretty early in the pregnancy, I am already having trouble waking up, getting up from my seat, or even getting ready to go out 😳😳.

My stomach already feel so heavy at 4 mths, and I lift weights as a hobby! 

It just constantly feel like I am bloated everyday, but I cannot put pressure or wait for it to subside because it's not fucking air 🙃

I feel horrible at work and unable to concentrate fully. I do get depressed occasionally about how life is going to change.

However when I went for my first ultra sound, everything changed. It is like I do not feel the nausea at that second I am looking at Krispy Kreme moving on the machine! Can't explain it really!

I keep telling myself it is all going to be worth it in the end, although I still have 5 more months to go................